I used to attend a class at a local gym called “Power.” We did dynamic weight lifting and by the end of the class almost every muscle in my body was shaking. After weeks of training, I started seeing real results! I could lift my kids and carry big bags of groceries with ease. My back hurt less and I had more energy.
It’s been years since I was in that kind of shape, and it was apparent last week when our family moved into a new home. The reality of my physical weakness hit me head on. Furniture, beds, boxes and books all proved too much for me to lift. Even the smaller loads I carried made my back hurt! My heart was willing, but my body wasn’t.
I became keenly aware of my physical inadequacy. At the same time, I’ve come face to face with the frailty of my emotions. Most of the time I feel emotionally strong. I’m thankful for a faith that grants me the peace I need, and a perspective that keeps the important things in focus. Three weeks ago I was making last minute preparations for the Inheritance of Hope (IOH) Legacy Retreat at Disney World and encountered some circumstances that left me feeling very weak. My faith and my perspective were both shaken for a while. Over the next 2 weeks, six of the families who were confirmed to attend the retreat canceled due to acute illness or death. On the Tuesday right before the Legacy Retreat, we lost two families in two hours 2 hours, and then we received the call that Deric and Kristen Milligan, IOH’s founders and inspiration, were also unable to come due to Kristen’s declining health.
You must
You must think I’m strong
To give me what I’m going through
Well, forgive me
Forgive me if I’m wrong
But this looks like more than I can do
On my own
I know I’m not strong enough to be
everything that I’m supposed to be
I give upI’m not strong enough
Hands of mercy won’t you cover me
Lord right now I’m asking you to be
Strong enough
Strong enough
For the both of us
Well, maybe
Maybe that’s the point
To reach the point of giving up
Cause when I’m finally
Finally at rock bottom
Well, that’s when I start looking up
And reaching out
I know I’m not strong enough to be
Everything that I’m supposed to be
I give upI’m not strong enough
Hands of mercy won’t you cover me
Lord right now I’m asking you to be
Strong enough
Strong enough
Cause I’m broken
Down to nothing
But I’m still holding on to the one thing
You are God
and you are strong
When I am weak
I can do all things
Through Christ who gives me strength
And I don’t have to be
Strong enough
Strong enough
OH how I needed to read this post today!!!
Thank you for your encouragement.
Praise Jesus-i can rest in His strength!!!
Jill,
What a wonderful blog! loved it and love Matthew West!
Amen. Beautiful poem.